Most of you that read my blog probably already know this, but yesterday was my birthday. Before getting into what I want to write about, I wanted to take a moment and thank all of you who took the time to wish me happy birthday. Specifically those of you who do it because we are friends on Facebook or Twitter. Social Networking has made it much easier than before to wish people happy birthday. For that I am thankful. I know that while many of you who have posted something on my wall on FB, I have not done that for you. I truly am sorry and DO WISH that whenever your birthday falls, you will have a good day!
Now that I have said that, let me tell you a bit about my birthday's every year. I have always been a bit of a pessimist, and that comes out a little bit on November 1st every year. I had one person yesterday say, "another year the Lord has given you," to which I would like to reply "that means one less year." I am sure that wrapped up in my attitude every year is a bit of selfishness and pride. In fact, I am sure that there is a bit of those things (among others) wrapped up in almost everything that I do.
When I say "that means one less year," what I do NOT mean is that I am scared of dying or that I am depressed that my life is one year closer to eternity. What I do mean is that while I am grateful for this past year the Lord has given me (and I am so thankful for it), every November 1st is a stinging reminder to me that I need to take seriously my calling in life because I have one less year to be productive for my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Maybe it is just hard for me to express in words, but I have this longing, this desire to make every moment of my life count for something. Maybe that is why I am driven to accomplish things in my life.
I hope I am not depressing you, but here are a few verses that always beat me up regarding this matter.
"Therefore, be careful how you walk, not as unwise men but as wise, making the most of your time, because the days are evil" (Ephesians 5:15-16). I am commanded to make the most of my time because the time that I have is not long. John MacArthur, in his commentary on Ephesians says this: "For His own reasons, God allows some of His children to live and serve far into old age. Others He grants only a few years or even a few weeks. But none of us knows how long or short his own allocation of time will be." None of us know how much time we have in this life (James 4:13-15). This really puts into perspective my time watching TV, surfing the Internet, or even playing FB games (actually I don't play those games, but thought you might be convicted by it).
"So then, while we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, and especially to those who are of the household of the faith" (Galatians 6:10). What does Paul mean by "while we have opportunity?" Could it be that at some point we will not have the opportunity to do good? Could it be that at some point the chance to do good to all people, especially the household of faith, will be stripped away from us? It means that we only have one shot at this life.
I apologize if this is depressing, but I want to make my life count, don't you? So, maybe November 1st of every year is a day of frustration in my own heart because I am convicted of all the times I have failed to make the most of my opportunities during this past year. It is a day of repentance. It is a day of introspection. But most of all, what I need the most, is that this is a day of the gospel! That even in my sins of missing opportunities and wasting time, I have acceptance and redemption because of what Jesus did on the cross. So, it's November 2nd and I am back upon the horse trying to run hard and fast for Jesus and being faithful to what He has called me to do.
Does any of this make sense?